Have you ever heard of impostor syndrome?
It is defined on Google as.. ‘Impostor syndrome (also known as impostor phenomenon or fraud syndrome or the impostor experience) is a concept describing individuals who are marked by an inability to internalize their accomplishments and a persistent fear of being exposed as a “fraud”‘
So why am I writing about it?
I hate this feeling – but I’m pretty sure I’m not alone in feeling it. The worst part about it is it’s transferable across every part of your life. I run a website for my job and I constantly feel like I don’t know enough about SEO, eCommerce, the best way to engage customers online – but I mean, I must be doing something right if I’m still running it right?
My travelling is another factor that contributes to this feeling. I always have people come up to me who I haven’t seen in a while say they have seen my Instagram and I’m always away or doing something. Because of this I actually feel guilty if I spend a weekend at home sitting on my couch. There is this constant feeling of pressure to get up and go somewhere to the point that my calendar is always jam packed. How could I not be an impostor when I have a travel blog but I’m not travelling or doing anything?
Even creating this blog has made me feel that way on more than one occasion. When switching my site over to a self hosted site I thought to myself ‘who am I fooling thinking I will be able to even do this?’. Low and behold a few hours later I had everything set up and was good as new. Why did I feel the need to doubt myself? For some reason I felt like I shouldn’t know how to make changes to a website or customize it to suit my needs but I had no reason to ever believe it was something I couldn’t do.
I’m not sure why we feel this impending feeling of never being good enough at what we are doing. Is social media to blame or is it just something that is ingrained in ourselves to feel this way? I admire the confident people out there who feel good enough in everything they do. School, work, hobbies – I always felt, and still feel like I’m just blagging my way through it all. With seven trips under my belt already this year, another three trips in the pipeline, three festivals, multiple concerts and more hotel breaks within Ireland than ever – I would love to be reminded as to why I feel like I don’t ‘deserve’ to have a travel blog?!
What can I do to stop it?
I’ve decided I’m going to write down three things I think I’m good at every so often, or that I have accomplished in that day in the hopes of getting rid of this impostor syndrome once and for all. You are the captain of your own life, and all that jazz! I don’t know if it will even help but it is definitely a start. I’m sick of not feeling like I’m good enough at what I’m doing and I refuse to let it continue
Have you ever felt this way about something in your life? Like you were only pretending to know what you are doing? If so, why?